Right, OK. Do I even know where to begin? The honest answer at the moment I would have to honestly say is no. Yes I do like to think of myself as clever maybe even thought-provoking, however I would be lying if I was to tell you that the idea of presenting something that is wholesomely mine in a format where everyone is an arm-chair reviewer is utterly, utterly terrifying. What is my show going to be about, No idea. Who is my audience, yet again no Idea…
Am I even capable of presenting this? or should I just hide and create something that is bog-standard and lacks thought or passion… No I am going to do this for me, this is my performance and this is my blog; my place to think, be honest, hell even display my shocking grasp of the English language. I want people to feel at ease when they read my words, no pretense, no lies… Just the truth, my truth. Who knows where my thoughts will take me, however if I don’t speak my mind then I am sure I will never find out myself. I’m scared , I’m terrified, I’m exhilarated.
Let the trip begin.
Something that has always inspired creativity in me is a passage from a very well known book.
“Another thing that got forgotten was the fact that against all probability a sperm whale had suddenly been called into existence several miles above the surface of an alien planet.
And since this is not a naturally tenable position for a whale, this poor innocent creature had very little time to come to terms with its identity as a whale before it then had to come to terms with not being a whale any more.
This is a complete record of its thoughts from the moment it began its life till the moment it ended it.
Ah … ! What’s happening? it thought.
Er, excuse me, who am I?
Hello?
Why am I here? What’s my purpose in life?
What do I mean by who am I?
Calm down, get a grip now … oh! this is an interesting sensation, what is it? It’s a sort of … yawning, tingling sensation in my … my … well I suppose I’d better start finding names for things if I want to make any headway in what for the sake of what I shall call an argument I shall call the world, so let’s call it my stomach.
Good. Ooooh, it’s getting quite strong. And hey, what’s about this whistling roaring sound going past what I’m suddenly going to call my head? Perhaps I can call that … wind! Is that a good name? It’ll do … perhaps I can find a better name for it later when I’ve found out what it’s for. It must be something very important because there certainly seems to be a hell of a lot of it. Hey! What’s this thing? This … let’s call it a tail – yeah, tail. Hey! I can can really thrash it about pretty good can’t I? Wow! Wow! That feels great! Doesn’t seem to achieve very much but I’ll probably find out what it’s for later on. Now – have I built up any coherent picture of things yet?
No.
Never mind, hey, this is really exciting, so much to find out about, so much to look forward to, I’m quite dizzy with anticipation …
Or is it the wind?
There really is a lot of that now isn’t it?
And wow! Hey! What’s this thing suddenly coming towards me very fast? Very very fast. So big and flat and round, it needs a big wide sounding name like … ow … ound … round … ground! That’s it! That’s a good name – ground!
I wonder if it will be friends with me?
And the rest, after a sudden wet thud, was silence.
Curiously enough, the only thing that went through the mind of the bowl of petunias as it fell was Oh no, not again. Many people have speculated that if we knew exactly why the bowl of petunias had thought that we would know a lot more about the nature of the universe than we do now.”
Douglas Adams, The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy